Don't come a-knocking Mr Past!

Some people come into your life for a reason; this is what I have learned in my life. But others only want to mess with your head when they're out of people close to them to wind up.

We've all made mistakes in the past, and hopefully we've all learned from them; if not; that's OK too; no one's perfect.

The reason for this sudden philosopical thinking you may ask?

Well, an old friend pops up on a social media site; we don't even need to name the name coz we're all on it!

Thet's wonderful; you say; it'll be nice to catch up; a little walk down memory lane's not gonna hurt is it?

WRONG!!!

I found myself thinking, as they waffled on about thier own life, and how they were so very happy now thinking 1): Take a breath!!! And 2): Are you gonna ask me how I'm doing through all this?!!

I could have things to tell you; a handsome husband, several beautiful children and be a millionaire!! (Although chance would be a fine thing!!! :) :)

But I don't need to convince others I'm happy with my life, for it to be true.

I've always been a good listener; or I like to think I am, so chew my ear off; that's fine, but stop and listen to yourself and hear just how selfish that is.

No change there. As I recall you were always this way; you haven't chanaged, only got more conceded.

I think, as they are telling me about an ex of mine who is now in prison that they are now free to live thier life without them about, how I could ever have been close to this person?

Was it that back then I was just too young and foolish to notice? And was I like that all those years ago? Or have I over time changed? And for the better?

After all this I didn't expect to be contacted again; but I was. Exchanging numbers we texted for a while, and within a week they got funny when I said something; rather candid about something we did in our past.

It wasn't taken well; and they asked me abruptly to not cantact them anymore!

Very well, I say, but they unfriend yours truely. (I was so heartbroken over this of course!!! :) :)

Life moved on; I baked, I blogged and blethered with the girls, and didn't even give them a second thought.

Until one day I got a message: "Still ugly!" It said. Oh how childish! So that was ignored, and life went on as usual.

Then out of the blue only days ago a message appears with something about how it's been a while since we spoke!!

Ignored. Hours later: "Getting married in December, having a winter wedding."

Ignored. Another arrives: "What not gonna come out with anything."

Get the message that I'm not messaging you! Then another this morning: "Still waiting for you for whatever you've got to say."

So finally I figured there's no point in bothering with this, so I clicked the "block" button.

A long time ago I would have been so pleased for them; and don't get me wrong I am that they're happy; they should have no need to try and rub someone's face in it; unless they aren't happy, and want to try and make me feel like I made a mistake.

No; not a chance.

See, I know I've changed; and for the better. My past is just that; I don't need to look back with regret; I look at it and smile; sure there are some things that I would sooner forget; like purple hair! But I feel like a lot of that was setting me up for now; my grown up life.

I know in my heart I'm a winner at life; as long as I do what I love and do with with courage and kindness, no one can change that; no matter how they try and knock you down.

Happy Saturday my friends xoxox